Currently Listening O God, The Aftermath By Norma Jean see related

I still dream but i am not sad....

Currently Listening Sundowning By This Is Hell see related

...So what now, Cowgirl? It is your move...

My only wishes are that I am never left in the dark ever again!  I beleive that to be the worst feeling in the world. 

Currently Listening All Riot By Waterdown see related

So I had a pretty rough couple of days...

I hate your goodbye's stephanie.  They make everything sound so hopeless.  Sorry I called so much.  I wanted more than anything for you to answer.  I went so long with out thinking about you and i was fine.... and when you sent me that letter, posted your xanga site, and sent that email it messed me up all over again.  I hate that feeling.  If you are happy being with him...I am happy for you....but you need to stop telling me how much you would love to be in my so called dream land and wake up next to me ...YOU ARE GETTING MARRIED TO HIM!!!I wish you would have told me...

..although i feel like you were nver holding me back....i think you were holding yourself back from being happy.  We all know this...i will never understand how you can do that.  I dont know you anymore....That makes me sad...But i will be fine as soon as you do me some favors...no matter what you never send me a dramatic letter again talking about how it was you and not me that caused things not to work....It is not what i want to hear.....Honesty, something that you have neglected to use with me is something that i want....and I want to hear them from you and not a fucking letter.

Second....if you have no intention of fixing anything you have done or trying to be the friend that you so strongly emphasized u wanted from me.....than go and leave me alone....By sayin waht you did....knowing that all i ahve heard from you recently is lies.....you are only opening up the wound every time....Yes i did talk to jennifer because what u said really upset me.....Sorry...but u wouldn't return my Calls...and that felt all so familiar....Plus after i overheard jeremy say you were getting married a couple months back , i got that sick feeling, i decided i didn't need to hear anymore that is going to affect me negatively...Until then.

So i guess this is where i have to move on again....and if you are tuelly happy with him....then you will as well...sorry again for the calls and messages of upset me....but i lost it and i didn't know how to react...I guess that is where i needed my "friend" back again....later.

Currently Listening We Don't Need to Whisper By Angels and Airwaves see related

I want to go on a canoe trip.....anyone want to come with?